May 25, 2014
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jojothemodernLast night I put the Wattpad app on my Kindle mainly so I can have a writing app on that particular device. Sometimes while lying in bed I think about writing but writing on the phone is no fun- the keyboard is too small- so, Kindle. It's good to make writing as convenient as possible to remove all excuses.
The surprising thing learned about alcohol yesterday is that it genuinely doesn't have much of an effect on me. I drank 16 ounces of 8% alcohol and all it did was make me very tired, then inclined to eat cookies. I didn't feel really relaxed, or in a better mood, though the room did seem a bit brighter and I maybe felt younger? And I wasn't as much aware of the passing of time. But considering it cost 400 calories and I was pretty helpless for more than an hour, I would like to get more out of it. It did cross my mind that it could loosen me up while writing, but that would only work if I could easily sit up straight and use my arms, seriously.
BUT. It's nice to see that drinking doesn't make anything negative happen either. I didn't get angry or weepy or anything like that. Of course I didn't drink that much, but still. Drinking more would probably just make me more tired, more snack inclined. And even less alert, more out of it. I can't say I'm thrilled with that aspect.
I feel like I can make the choice to not bother with alcohol, not because I am afraid of it but because I just don't care for the feeling of not being sober.
Meanwhile, I do have a better idea now of how people normally feel when they drink. The idea of drinking till drunk, spending an evening as a walking mess and not remembering anything the next day and repeating the experience on purpose, is more befuddling than ever. Why would anyone do that. Why would anyone ruin their lives and the lives of those around them for the experience.
The surprising thing learned about alcohol yesterday is that it genuinely doesn't have much of an effect on me. I drank 16 ounces of 8% alcohol and all it did was make me very tired, then inclined to eat cookies. I didn't feel really relaxed, or in a better mood, though the room did seem a bit brighter and I maybe felt younger? And I wasn't as much aware of the passing of time. But considering it cost 400 calories and I was pretty helpless for more than an hour, I would like to get more out of it. It did cross my mind that it could loosen me up while writing, but that would only work if I could easily sit up straight and use my arms, seriously.
BUT. It's nice to see that drinking doesn't make anything negative happen either. I didn't get angry or weepy or anything like that. Of course I didn't drink that much, but still. Drinking more would probably just make me more tired, more snack inclined. And even less alert, more out of it. I can't say I'm thrilled with that aspect.
I feel like I can make the choice to not bother with alcohol, not because I am afraid of it but because I just don't care for the feeling of not being sober.
Meanwhile, I do have a better idea now of how people normally feel when they drink. The idea of drinking till drunk, spending an evening as a walking mess and not remembering anything the next day and repeating the experience on purpose, is more befuddling than ever. Why would anyone do that. Why would anyone ruin their lives and the lives of those around them for the experience.
